I'm not even sure what to say here. I could say what I feel...if I knew for certain what that were. I feel so at home in two different worlds. Call it a blessing if you will, but it's a difficult thing to handle when those worlds are thousands of miles and dollars apart. What to do? Everyone's got an opinion, but those do not help. I have to ask two questions. What is God calling me to do? What is my husband, my road to heaven, calling me to do? If you think those answers are obvious, you are mistaken. And perhaps I'm so blinded by all the commotion in my head to even see the truth about what I should do with my life right now. Maybe I should give you a few examples of what is going on in my head each day.
List One: things that scream, "Get thee to India!"
List two: things that scream, "My old Kentucky Home!!!"(though not the way the drunk people do at Derby)