tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3653390722912743537.post8589143520822548203..comments2023-03-27T03:27:03.206-07:00Comments on Just a Tiny Pencil: In case you are confused by my vague attempts to become a hermit...Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3653390722912743537.post-60837214268471296322013-10-30T17:46:44.332-07:002013-10-30T17:46:44.332-07:00Thank you for your writing.
If you are wondering ...Thank you for your writing. <br />If you are wondering how you are serving God, I think you are doing it at least through your writing.<br />You mention St. Therese...have you read:<br />I Believe in Love (sophia institute press publishes it)<br />and<br />The Way of Trust and Love (by Fr. Jacques Phillipe)<br />?<br />I recommend both highly because I don't have the answers but in my experience St. Therese does...<br /><br />I could really relate to the comment you made about not knowing on your wedding day the whole plan of your llife...In my own case I have been very surprised by God and His plans for me, and I am still being surprised. If you google "Pope Francis God's surprises" you will find that this is a common theme of his.<br /><br />But besides recommending St. Therese in strong doses, and lots of tears, and Conrad Baar's book Feeling and Healing Your Emotions (a great man who, like your dear priest, told me it is good to cry, it is okay to feel sorry for yourself -by which I don't mean to minimize your suffering AT ALL, I think it's huge suffering which is why) I recommend: talking straight to Jesus. I don't mean talking to Him without intermediaries, I mean saying it like it is:<br />for example,<br />Dear Jesus,<br />You know me. You know me perfectly and thoroughly because You made me.<br />Therefore You know that I am very little and these crosses are very big. <br />I am grateful for all You've given me, but enough of these crosses. Thank You for them too, but enough, okay? Please send lots of messages to me now, good ones, clear ones, happy ones. If it takes an angel with a brick to get through to me what You are trying to say, please send one (but let it be a foam brick), because I'm missing something. Please help me soon, in a way I can see, feel, and recognize.<br />I love you, but please hurry up to love me in a way that feels like love. Amen.<br /><br />That would be just a sample prayer. And then there are recreations - crossword puzzles, jigsaw puzzles, romantic comedies like You've Got Mail or old movies like The Awful Truth or funny goofy movies like the Walter Mattheau/Elaine May movie A New Leaf, and long walks or hot cups of tea or visits to the library where you browse the stacks until a book jumps off the shelf at you to change your life, and don't forget cheesecake and eclairs. (Just today I read in Last Conversations of St. Therese that she requested an eclair in the last month of her life!)<br /><br />I don't know if any of this is helpful: take what you like and leave the rest. But I do know that you are a great writer and that is important because your suffering need never be fruitless. In fact, because you've written about it, it is already fruitful. Though I'm still sorry you are suffering. I'm praying to St. Therese for you.<br />with love,<br />Suzie Andres (who is not really "nobody" but also is not great at navigating blogs and posting comments :)Anthony Andreshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04588421332014604255noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3653390722912743537.post-10569869012929274042013-10-30T14:45:41.424-07:002013-10-30T14:45:41.424-07:00Lifting you up before the Holy Trinity. I love you...Lifting you up before the Holy Trinity. I love your dependence even in the midst of anger and pain. I share with you a dream i had of having a crown of thorns. In the dream, I was a child. I woke and asked Jesus what it meant. When I fell asleep again, I heard him say "You share in my suffering." I hate sharing in his suffering, but he is my beloved. I am willing to share anything for those I love or at least believe I am. It is only recently, many years from my childhood and at least 10 since the dream, that I have been able to be truly thankful for my suffering. You know how people will say praise God through everything and one day you'll even be thankful for it, the worst thing in the world? Who the heck knew they were actually correct? I never in a million years believed it possible. Praying for you as you suffer with Him. In Christ's Peace.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08121346357237991919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3653390722912743537.post-82842353774873537282013-10-30T10:20:01.680-07:002013-10-30T10:20:01.680-07:00Thanks so much for your kind words :)Thanks so much for your kind words :)Just a Tiny Pencilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11742018369906858592noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3653390722912743537.post-36494908126997233102013-10-29T17:36:59.131-07:002013-10-29T17:36:59.131-07:00Your post made me think of Psalm 77:
“Will the Lo...Your post made me think of Psalm 77:<br /><br />“Will the Lord reject forever?<br /> Will he never show his favor again?<br />Has his unfailing love vanished forever?<br /> Has his promise failed for all time?<br />Has God forgotten to be merciful?"<br /><br />Of course, you know the answer to that even if at the moment you don't feel the answer in your heart. <br /><br />I am so sorry for your pain and heartache. May He send you comfort. Prayers for you and your Wesley. Beatehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16540079977432114824noreply@blogger.com